Since my last post I have become increasingly fed up with college. A women at my college is now giving my mum nightly updates on me, is forcing me to attend visits that I really don’t want to go on and then making me pay to go on them and she wants me to attend an extra 5 hours a week of classes for revision purposes.
This combined with the stress my graphics project is putting me under is making me hate college all together. I would probably drop out from the stress it is causing me but college is my one link to a social life and without completing college I feel my life is truly going nowhere. The stress is confined to college either I come home and have to hear more of the same from my mum who today got past the point of asking “Am I ok?” and went back to her normal standards of screaming “What the hell is wrong with you?!?” If it wasn’t for the fact I have a hundred quid to my name and nowhere to go I would be moving out.
To top it all off on Thursday night Laura my ex that is becoming quite a major feature of this blog started talking to me again. Despite my hints of it probably not being the best idea for us to talk as I am trying to get over her, she is persistent. She is making my head hurt, she spends half her time talking about our previous dates and why we get on so well and the other half talking about the guy that we broke up over. Mixed messages much. I just had a bit of an argument with her as she suggested that I don’t care for her enough to bother attending a funeral, unfortunately during my anger at this comment and the proceeding rant I may have accidentally let slip that I still have feelings for her. Time will tell how things shape up in this respect. I don’t even know what outcome I would consider best.
